no matter what i do or how i try i can't redeem myself strip clean - pick up the pieces start over again who made the rules who decides when i've made up paid up ten months this time twelve before few others could take much more do it right how can i when i'm not even given the chance to correct the mistakes i've already made? it's so hard to live up to standards when you don't even know what they are how can you expect me to change?